deal.

when i was little my parents thought it was fitting to go to church every sunday, i never reall understood why or for what reason they felt like that but i complied because i had no choice. so when i would be young and little id lay in my bed at night with my bible i had from my holy communion in third grade and the gold cross and chain i wore around my neck 24/7 from my grandma that ive had since birth i would lay and basically make deals with "god" one of them being that if he were to take any member of my imediate family that he would basically be getting a 2 for 1 special. that i wouldnt let anyone pass without me. lately my mom has been feeling weird and i keep thinking back to that night i layed there and made those deals with "god" and i think about if anything happends to her what will happen to my family and i keep finding my self crumbling and breaking down and its starting to really get in my head.

update.

today i found out that my license has been suspended for a month, i had no clue it is done already and i only have to pay 25 bucks or some shit to get it back i figured once i get paid next week or get my taxes back i should probably do that. during that i time attended traffic court and i dont know how those assholes thought i got there and it somehow slipped their mind to tell me license was suspended but i could honestly care less. during my time at court i had 2 warrants for my arrest 1 of which was a bench warrant which is basically a warning and the other was an instant arrest warrant which means if i basically looked at a cop crooked i get locked up...glad i knew about that...oh wait.

thats the downside.


everything has been pretty good lately on a personal level been hangin with all my rude dudes and wild boys in the city and hangin out and shit and its been pretty tight. full circle just got done recording a new 7 hopefully we find somone to press it but i dont know the first thing about doin that or going about that but whatever. i am in love with a pretty lil lady and she is basically my world lately with my license being suspended and all she is trying to keep me calm and relaxed alot and it rules. she is the most perfect. i think this weekend im goin to long island with some wild boys should be a wild time.

im into life at the moment who knows whats gonna happen next.

the facts

i dont shower enough

united blood was fun

this girl rules

there are alot of gay black people

i need money strictly for shoes

my job sucks huge dicks

im not moving to 15th and tasker

my license is suspended

id like to go to new york and stay there for good

i need to go to school

my dog is not as huge of a bitch as she used to be

i got a new phone so text this number now 267 994 7951

its no wonder why i never update this is boring me as im writing it

Miss you

my gandfather(bebop) used to be my best friend him and my grandmother (gram) were the people that i confied in as a youngster. my gram always cared for what my opinion was on situations with my family and things of that nature so basically she always liked to hear what i had to say, so it was easy for me to talk to her about anything, anytime, any place. as for my Bebop he was my other half he liked to show me things and would make up little projects for me and him to do i.e bulding boats, and soapbox cars for absolutely no reason at all, shit ruled. my gram passed away in 2006 from some sort of cancer it was bullshit and i never felt so torn up in my entire life, shortly after my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer. id say this was the starting point for my "i dont give a fuck about anything" movement but, all during that bullshit my Bebop was still there for me giving me rides places and helping me out when i needed a few bucks here and there and would call from time to time to see how i was doing and shit. lately i feel like hes kinda been trying to distance himself from my family or something and it bums me out and i just kinda dont know how to handle it, its like somone you looked up to all your life just kind of slowly fading away. it really bums me out, i miss listening to frank sinatra and driving to the jersey shore with him and i hope that i can do that as many more times as i can for years to come.

so.

i honestly dont know what to say, people are being mad whack lately for no reason i dont know what i did or who i offended or threw under the bus or whatever but it seems like eveytime everyone hangs out anymore atleast one of my friends is sweatin me, maybe i should lay low for a while this shit is getting annoying.

week end

ok so this past weekend was probably one of the best in a while alot of cool things went down. ugh right now im sitting on my couch wanting to walk to wendys or saladworks but its really fucking cold so i think thats out of the question, i think tonight marissa is having people over her house tonight and thats were i will end up going....as for the weekend....

friday got outta work early had the whole house to myself because my dad was sleeping at my uncles with my brothers and my mom was in texas for some shit so we played a show at the teen center with times up and cut short and that was as cool as it could be i guess haha after the show we went to some party in germantown with scott and all the girls were dressed like cave en with like loin clothes and shit it ruled.


saturday i woke up pretty late and met up with the boys then we all went to edison for the have heart, mom, my luck, bracewar, the rival mob, bad seed show and that was awesome after the show we went down to the rutgers campus and went to the grease trucks and i got a sandwhich called the fat bitch it ruled. also somehow i managed to leave new jersey with a girlfriend which i am fucking stoked about still.



sunday times up was playing the ringworm have heart show at the moose and they decided to split a set with us so we hopped on and played 3 songs and it was mad fun ringworm was amazing and i left before have heart frankly because i dont really get into that band so i dont know what all the hypes about but o well. it snowed like a shit load and i went sledding monday and it was amazing good shit everyday.

loving life.

my blob

um. things are really good.

i am still broke.

i will have money soon.

i have nothin to write about.

im going to the flyers game tommorow(free beanie)

i got a haircut.

i dont want to go to work tommorow.

today i put staples into human flesh

i ow 406 dollars to philadelphia.

um thats it i guess